KARMA IS.....

 

Karma is a bad bitch!!!! She doesn’t show her face until she is summoned by some deed  (good or bad) but when she shows up she handles business and she leaves without a trace. I was fortunate enough to meet her yesterday when she came into my job. Here goes the ordeal…

Me- “My insecurities always lead me to believe that someone, something or some force is out to utterly destroy me one way or another. So naturally I approach relationships and all matters of the heart with extreme caution; I actually have six bloodthirsty pit bulls, the guy from x-men origins that shoots with extreme accuracy, the ghost of Bruce lee and the vanguard legion of the Black Panther Party guarding the perimeter around my heart. Recently, I decided to let my guard down just long enough to let someone hop the fence and cleared them with my security with all intentions of pursuing a solidified relationship. However, I also made the conscious decision to keep my ‘side pieces’ just in case things don’t work out in favor of the preferred relationship.  Call me selfish but that’s the only way for me to still keep myself safe while testing the waters of monogamy. And before you really jump off the deep end and call me all types of names just know that I am NOT physically involved with the ‘side pieces’ .”

 Karma-“You are a fucking LIAR!!!! “

 And then she walked out.

  As far as I knew, I was having a heart-to-heart convo with Karma and she would respect my “honesty”. Furthermore I thought Karma to be the one who would recognize the good in my decision and hold me down off G.P. Right? WRRRROONNNNNGGGGGG!!!! Karma is heartless. In order to fulfill her duties she must be void of human emotion and totally disconnected from the perceptions of individuals.  She is intermediate and ruler of the space and time between action and reaction and she governs with an iron fist.  With one sentence she made me a subject in her kingdom and forced me realize her limitless power.

 

            I was forced to realize that I had, in fact, been habitually lying to myself. I kept “side pieces” because I wanted to have my cake and eat it to.  Rather than let Karma handle any spousal injustices imposed upon me, I tried to intercept Karma and alleviate her of her duty in my life by justifying my extra-curricular activities by rendering them void of “physicalities”. The sad part consisted of me actually believing myself and whole-heartedly tried to convince other people that is was okay.

Karma is fearless. You know that fear has taken over you or a aspect of you, when you conjure up a scheme to avoid it and then convince yourself and others that the reason why you have such a reactionary scheme is some sort of good-for-life principle that you stand on.  If fear can make you lie then it will make you steal- rob yourself of the energy it takes to over come it, steal productive time that could be used to build with your spouse and rob you of the fighting chance to actually have a healthy relationship. And if you steal you will kill- kill your own spirit of genuine love, kill the chance for your partner to really have all of you and vice versa and ultimate kill the living/thriving parts of your relationship.  Committing love crimes!!!

 

Karma is real. All hail the queen.